Jangan halau rahmat Allah dengan banyak merungut

I dont know when exactly i attempted to make a post for this topic, but i love the title. I drafted this post since I was still in egypt.
Those time when going to usrah is not really a big struggle for me, i enjoyed it very much there.
(even now still not a hard struggle, why, because i have fatiah to go together with, khairiah to stay with, and all the fun usrah members to mingle with, as well as our awesome naqibah kak han. Ya Allah, ease my heart and make me steadfast in this road till the end of my life.)

About barakah and rahmat. 
Sometimes it is us who drive the goodness away,

Usually by our own negative thinking. Once a friend said to me,

"Jangan cakap diri sendiri miskin selalu tak ada duit, nanti betul-betul Allah bagi tak ada duit."

When we feel ourselves not having that much money when actually we got RM10 in our purse, doesn't it mean that we feel like RM10 is not enough for us at the moment? Are we calibrating "ada duit" with amount of money that we have? Oh kalau macam tu, orang yang just ada RM5 dalam purse dia semua miskin.

Then you merungut macam-macam tak ada tu tak ada ni, tak ada masa, tak ada makanan, tak ada baju. Sampai bebila pun hidup kau tak akan rasa lapang dan mudah, sebab at all time you tak puas hati dengan apa yang you dah ada.

And bila rasa tak puas dengan apa yang ada tu wujud dalam diri,
That is when the barakah goes away.

Kurangkan merungut,
Banyakkan bersyukur.

InsyaAllah, Allah akan tambah.
(Ibrahim: 7)

Random #11

I’m the one I should love in this world
Shining me, precious soul of mine
I finally realized, so I love me
Not so perfect but so beautiful
I'm the one I should love

-Epiphany

It's going to end soon

Today i wrote my resignation letter which will be send tomorrow to the main office.

4 months plus felt so short. It was not an easy journey, also not that hard (nyampah je bajet penuh cabaran dugaan haha) yet so meaningful. Life is so much merrier when this friend come along. Embarking wonderful journey with few educational programs around. Got new usrahmates. Learnt so much things, and of course lots more to learn.

Let's just enjoy this final month shall we?

i believe i have improved. at least, a little.

Abah became weird lately

Last friday i managed to go home (sungai besar) for 2 days 1 night. Quick escape before going back to KL on saturday's night as i have three interesting (delicious, hehe) talks to attend to on the next day. Courses held in hotels offer great buffets, who wouldnt be tempted for those free food? Wahaha.

Before going to bus station that evening, i sat in dining room to drink some plain water, besides having back my unfinished nasi lemak which i ate for breakfast. Thats when abah came in and ask me, "Do you want some toast with kaya and butter?" So i replied a quick "Yes" , well this is a rare occasion for me. Usually abah will take our food but instead he was the one offering himself to serve the food? Hmm. And not forget to mention, he then make me a cup of coffee meh.

Abah even took the initiative to send me to bus station, usually it will be either my mother or him. Instead they both go together. We arrived 5 mins earlier, and he waited with me for the bus (which he usually dont. Aiyoo so many surprises that evening). Also after i hopped on the bus, they stayed there until the bus went away.

Sure i felt abah was sad (yeke) as i havent been around him so much after graduation.
And in a few months, i will be starting my post as a houseman.

i cannot stand the look of abah's face worried about me