Sunday, July 12, 2015

rindu


Sungguh,

Aku merindui saatnya untuk aku kembali lapang untuk membaca buku luar medik kembali,

Menghidu bau-bau kertas coklat lama, menyalakan ayat ayat motivasi dan kesedaran;

InsyaAllah, sikit je lagi. Akan sampai masanya untuk kau diuji dengan benarkah-kau-ingin-mengisi-masamu-dengan-membaca. So sementara ini bersungguh-sungguhlah dengan medical books and al-quran. 

Sikit je lagi.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

What goes around comes around


Just some sharing. Again bahasa yang saya guna sangatlah rojak.

Start from tahun lepas mmg sangat mahu ke tabarro' project but tak diizinkan tahun lepas sbb dah balik msia, and this year when hearing diorang nak buat lagi rasa so "Yeah! Aku kena join!" Then, updates came telling it'll be held today, which i have exam esok harinya. Rasa macam..hmmm takde rezekilah.

But i keep on thinking,

To some extent, rasa cam tepu sangat baca ENT, so kita buat azam utk jadikan pergi ke program ni cam azam utk lebih kuat prepare lah utk ke exam.

So days go by, akhirnya sampailah kepada hari ini, 10hb Julai 2014.

I still read and do some exercises till the last moment before syantah distribution happen; even in the bus. Walaupun hari sebelum tu dah azam, aku kena baca pulun malam ni, esok petang aku nak pastikan tak perlu dah bukak buku. Tapi semasa hari kejadian; dalam hati duk pikir, banyak lagi aku tak prepare utk esok ni. Buat mcq, soalan makin lama makin susah tak macam final year questions. Lots of guilt playing inside me, tapi layan dan tajdid niat je.

Then berlangsung lah program. Start dengan sharing, then after asar kami berpecah kepada 2 group. Satu edar shantoh, satu lagi bersihkan kawasan sabie. Team shantoh pulak bahagi lagi 2; satu ke asyir, satu ke duwaiyah, abbasiyah. (Kwsn kubur tu).

Dalam otak sgtlah fokus nak tabarro'+exam sampai lupa semua benda. Phone, duit, camera, takde. Just buku dan some doa stickers yang nak di distributed. Dan kerneh serta passport in case of emergency.

And then masa nak balik kak husna cakap dengan saya yang dia plan untuk stay di sabie dan terawih di sana bersama kak lily; and they suggested me to balik dulu sementara masih cerah. Ketika itu kami masih di duwiya', mengagihkan makanan utk homeless. So saya pun cakap "okey." 

Time nak balik tu mencari bas straight ke sayyeda zainab but tak familiar langsung dengan kawasan duwiya' tu, so tanya la beberapa tabarro' members camne nak balik sayyeda. They give me few suggestions, then saya cakap "fine, orait boleh gerak sendiri. Kot. Cuba lah."

Tetiba ada kawan insist nak hantar even  time tu dah nak dekat waktu berbuka puasa; dan dlm otw tu baru perasan betapa unfamiliarnya diri ni dengan mesir sepanjang jalan tu, first time ke mahattah hussein, gi ramsis from hussein, lalu attabah versi lawa. Siyes tak pernah lalu, tahu jelah ada mahattah hussein but today is my first time there.

Dan otw tu jugaklah adehh, baru perasan phone takdak, duit pun takdak. Baru ingat nak belanja kos jalan sebab kita dah susahkan orang kan. Terbalik pulak jadinya. Err. Nasib baik ada kawan. Kalau jalan lone ranger tadi mmg la berhenti tepi jalan je.

So, overall banyak sangat benda yang belajar daripada hari ni. Prefer list dalam point so that nampak sikit, buat peringatan for future:

1. First time dengar org bagi talk pasal charity yang truly charity; bukan sbb jemaah suruh, bukan sbb nak tolong ahli batch, bukan sbb yang ada kepentingan; just nak BERI. Thanks for members dari Yalla Charity Organizations, and The Pelangi Project utk sharing ni. Need to become one like them.

2. Masa jalan dengan kak Aqmar, dia tanya saya, "siapa akhawat dpn ni eh, lupa nama dia." Saya pun macam "entah, tak sure, tak sembang dengan dia." Kak Aqmar punya reply yg mmg menusuk sangat; "Eh mana boleh awak kan cairo, dia oun cairo, mesti la kena kenal, kitorang kat alex kalau boleh kena kenal dan sembang dgn semua org." (Akhawat tu student azhar)

3. Masa bagi shantoh; kak Husna share, "Dalam kelas hadis kami belajar, orang yg faqir ialah org yang berusaha mencari rezeki bukan tunggu suap." So kak husna insist on cari org2 miskin yang still bekerja keras even dah nak masuk waktu maghrib utk diberi shantoh iftar.

4. Makcik2 yang sangat ramai ajak kami iftar sekali walaupun keadaan mereka saat dhaif. Duduk kat kubur sekitar abbasiyah tu, wonder gak diorang keje ape kat situ.

5. Kak lily yang semangat cari ayat quran everytime penyampai kat depan sebut mana-mana ayat, pastu dia toleh belakang tanya kitorang "ayat mana tadi tu eh," dan kitorang "Hmmm hmm ade tu ayat tu pernah jumpa," *google*

6. Kitorang duk semangat bagi shantoh kat org, tapi Allah balas directly with the same thing bila ada orang lain pulak dalam kereta bagi kitorang wagabah. Dah la suruh tiap orang ambil satu (paksa ambil jugak), mashaAllah. Habis jem jalan sbb diorang stop tengah jalan.

7. Member tabarro' yg insist nak hantar sampai ke akhir walaupun dia kena patah balik ke sabie sbb kami ada bukak puasa bersama dan sharing. Pastu sbb kite takde duit dia hulur 10 genih (sumpah malu sgt time ni rasa loser habih, susahkan org berganda2); bila nak bayar balik dia sebut "Duit Tuhan, kite pinjam je." Yep everything ours today is not actually ours kan. Fuh mmg terkesan part ni sbb skrg tengah tamok nak simpan duit. Luls. Kena tegur directly dengan Allah.

8. Dan pakcik2 arab yang keep on baling kurma masuk tremco sepanjang jalan nak ke ramsis. Skill yang superb.

Itu sahaja, semoga hari ni menjadi hari yang berat timbangannya di sisi Allah. Yep bak kata penyampai tadi, puasnya perasaan buat baik tu!!! Waaahhh.

Puas sangat sangat sangat.
Kita tunggu pulak next project 13hb ini~

Esok exam ENT final. Mohon doa semua.

#10FinalDays #iklimsyurga

Pesanan penaja: jangan selalu jugak buat begini, takut makan diri pulak. Buat bila yakin, dan fully prepared for it. Mak saya selalu pesan dulu masa kita sibuk sangat dengan hidup universiti, bukan tak boleh  buat extra curriculum works, tapi kena bersungguh2 bersedia dan sacrifice masa2 lepak kita utk mencapai something better.

Saturday, July 4, 2015

Funny yet that's what make Egypt, Egypt



Assalamualaikum

So today we should be going for fortox oral exam; and we did go, but stopped halfway by the wave of our batchmates seen coming out from the university gate, shouting "Weh, dah habis. Dapat full marks!".

I was like "Series ah!"; and really fell into that because some of our arabic collegues said the same, the doctors are cheerful, kuwayis awiy and ready to give the students full marks despite of wrong or inaccurate answers given. 

And then other friend said, "No lah, takde exam hari ni. Jadual kita esok."

Now i see.

No need for other disagreement, this is what make Egypt; Egypt.


................................

Some other side story.

Yesterday there's iftar party at madinat nasr. I was keen to go but there's exam on saturday and that hesistates me to go, eventhough i already informed myself that i will never able to study from 6pm-10.30pm. The mood just not coming. Then hearing aisyah willing to go there with kak lily --pumped my spirit to go along! Horray!

Ps: Pardon my english, seems it turns more 'parah' towards the end. Please bear with me.

Everything went smooth until its time to go to mosque for terawih prayer. My pre exam depression syndrome give a knock. I felt very unmotivated so i asked my fellow usrahmates to lift my spirit up.

They did.
And it was beautiful.

As a return, i felt so exhausted that i slept from the moment of terawih till late in the morning (after subuh i ran for bed again), i didn't study neither revised much and; just go for exam, and things happen.

When i went home, kak tiqah zul messaged me and ask about the exam; so i tell her the story, and her reply was;

"Tu la Allah nak kasi can study lagi."

Mebi ada antara2 doa semalam yang termakbul. I think so.

So dalam masa yang ada ni jom lah kita study k. Tak layak nak futur dalam benda yang menjadi medan amal kita. Kata nak jadi dokter hebat yang menjadi asset untuk dakwah?

Sekian.









Thursday, July 2, 2015

#Thought 1

Macam mana ye,

Nak bagi content hati semua orang?


Essence


 This cutey nama dia absar, because he always observe what ppl doing


Assalamualaikum

Ramadhan means a lot to a muslim. When ramadhan was just arounds its corner, muslims would turn on their soleh mode, start to muhasabah, plan what should he do in order to maximize the whole month.

And of course, not all people are going to get the same opportunity (read: kelapangan). For example; my mom, she herself did never enjoyed full terawih at mosque like everyone did since dzorif was born. And also solat raya. As she always busy during the day. Im the only daughter and our big family lack of girls so why these things happen. We are super busy on syawal morning. I didnt feel anything since i bukanlah rajin pun nak ke masjid every night but my mom, she's different. Having full terawih at mosque is like her dream since ever.

And when dzorif turns six, she really do that, macam rasa bersyukur gila penantian dia selama ni telah berakhir.

What i learn from her is, mencapai kenikmatan ramadhan tu bukanlah dengan melakukan amalan2 dahsyat yang orang nampak besar macam masjid hopping tiap hari, dll tp ialah based on sejauh mana indulgence kita dalam melaksanakan ibadah itu, dan bagaimana ia eventually mampu mengubah kita, menjadi insan yang lebih baik bila ramadhan berakhir.


Ok tu je perasaan hari ini. Sekian.