Awaiting little us

Assalamualaikum

It had been few days since my maternity leave started. Basically since starting housemanship im now a poor planner (dont know why) so currently i dont have much things to do beside spending my time doing things that i cannot do much during my working days -- yes of course, SLEEP and LYING DOWN here and there. But for sure after three days im already bored with this unproductive routine. These leisure times taught me to be thankful for the work im having now, which i always dream to quit because of its super-busy-nature.

To be truthful, i really want to take this kind of picture

I'm taking my maternity leave two weeks earlier from my expected due date as one of my escapism from the super busy energy draining medical department in which my own strength/ability unable to cope with the current demand -- we now lacking of housemen and the workload is too heavy. Plus my knowledge was so poor that i feel like most of my bosses would ask me "which poster are you now?" Because i'm so slow and blur. I dont have much time to study, I would rather sleep everytime i went home. 

Sometimes being like this made me wonder,

Am i fit enough to be a houseman? Not to say a specialist.. now it become something far away/impossible for me to achieve ..

But seeing my seniors who successfully completed their housemanship and now become stable medical officers kinda motivate me. Well we gonna see how mine will end.

Hopefully i can be someone awesome -- specialist or not, im gonna be someone beneficial to my community!

And please little me inside my tummy, hopefully you're gonna be my best motivation to improve myself towards becoming someone better.  Thank you, as because of you, i got my own sweet time to recharge myself (before you coming out - of course, my life will be upside down later i think) i'm now feel blessed that i have a work because i think if i'm not i will be really bored living in this world doing nothing.